smile while its raining.

i realise that God really has a plan for everything that he does.
and sometimes, what God has in store for us, we can never ever understand, so sometimes we should stop thinking about it so much.

sometimes, we have to stop focusing on ourselves too much.
everyone has this obessesion with 'me, myself, i, mine...'
its disturbing actually.
and if i think about it, i do it too.

didn't manage to do my QT yesterday.
had some family crisis that distracted me.
but its nice to know that despite the darkness God is still there.
but sometimes...its just so hard to feel Him. :)

i made a covenant with God long ago, and i wrote it down in my bible.
i've forgotten about it long ago too.
backsliding always seem so easy, but when you sit down and actually think about it, your just running away from things you're too weak to stand up to.

so that is why i don't run away.
i face the problems that come.
never easy, always tough, always a herald for thousands of tears.
but come what may, God is still there.

and for this, i'm glad.
despite the darkness i feel.