i am unique.

GAP, day 24.

You are free to choose what you surrender to, but you are not free from the consequences of that choice.

how true, how true.

we are all really different aren't we?
no one has exactly what i do.
sure, some people are better than me, or worse than me in certain areas, but no one is ever really like me.

its nice when one thinks of it that way.
then comes the questions.

"God, why did you make me this way?"
"Why didn't you make me faster, bigger, stronger, smarter?"
"Why am I less than the others?"
"Why can he/she do this and I can't?"

WHY WHY WHY?

so many questions, and only one answer:
because God made us unique.

so i must learn to be thankful for who i am,
for what i have,
for what i can do,
and what i can't.
for the talents i have,
and the talents i don't.
for the things i excel in,
and the things that i don't.
for everything that is me.

it's not easy, oh no no no.
it's not easy at all.

sometimes i wish i could just rip off my skin and become like someone else.
become taller, smarter, thinner, prettier...
superficial yes, but i'm human and i want them all.
argh.

God, let me learn to accept myself as who i am and what i can do.
my limitations have been given because i am but a man.
let me understand that. please.

Psalm 36, 37