of all times.

of all times, lj has to be down.
i have this insane urge to blog about anything and everything, and stupid lj has to be down. great.

isn't it weird to get jolts of this feeling,
where one wishes to be isolated from all the world?
yet you know deep deep down,
that you can't escape from it all;
because people will come to you when they need help.
it's not as though you should moan or sigh about it,
because you do the same as well.

why are we created to be so inter-dependent?

there's a gazillion 'what-ifs' just floating around in my mind.
it's a bad habit i know,
and i should quit it.
but it's fascinating in a morbid sort of way
to just wonder about possibilities gone by and what not.

when a fifth of a decade goes by,
one can't help but wonder of chances missed,
of people met,
of words exchanged.
sometimes i wonder if i'm born too early,
or too late,
or perhaps even in the wrong country.
thoughts from my childhood,
questions answered,
some with answers that will never satisfy.

God, have i really left a mark,
or am i just a passing gale that will be forgotten?