personal revival.

today's service was just that, service.
until the alter call.
gosh.

i don't know why..but...jasmine's alter calls seem to hit me like a loaded truck speeding through a red light.
i guess i can't escape from God. :)

i'm going to get a new bible, so that i can refresh myself.
so that i can get that joy from discovering a meaning-filled bible verse and highlighting it.
so that i won't just scan through it any old how like i do now.
i want to learn how to be child-like again.

i realised how much i've been blind to today.
i have everything going my way now.
my sheep are doing fine, my group's today fine, as are my spiritual buddies and my ministry.
yet i don't hog onto this chance.
what am i doing? gosh.

i've been through so much, and yet i've held on.
so isn't it stupid to want to leave when everything's going fine?
i'm being plain stupid if i do.