to where?

where do i go?
i'm still quite quite confused. :(

and i realised what little faith i have sometimes. :|
i have to stop using the fact that i'm practical as an excuse to not trust in you!

god, where should i go after my a's?
i'm really scared of going overseas alone,
i must admit, i must say, i must confess.
yet i really really want to try my hand out at helping out overseas!

help me to make the right right right choice,
because i have yet to realise what it is.