jonah 2 zondervan
1st things 1st.
i'm CRAZY to be awake at 4.15am when i'm supposed to wake up at 9am subsequently.
i really can't be late in meeting whoever i'm meeting today.
rather distracted today,
i really ought not to get so easily distracted.
gah.
so apparantly jonah prayed because he was grateful for the extraordinay mercy God had shown him.
WHAM.
was my first instinct to judge and say
that DUH, he is supposed to be grateful.
he was running away from God for goodness sake!
yet i do the same thing whenever i merely have the thought of rebelling against my leaders and the holy spirit in me.
walking in step with the spirit is following God's will,
because the spirit guides me.
so in the strictest sense,
God's will is to keep in step with the spirit,
because it will lead us to where God can be found.
but if that were so,
i. would. be. so. dead.
thank God for God.
why do i find it so hard to focus at times?
why is it so easy for me to fall into laziness?
i suppose its easy for everyone else as well,
but if its MY biggest issue,
i should confront it.
GAH.
how does one un-lazy-fy herself?
so many undone things.
ben wai is going to kill me for the marcome stuff,
really need to do the jan calender by THIS SATURDAY,
and settle alllllll the stuff for the 31st service by FRIDAY.
with so much to do,
its a wonder i can still find it in me to slack.
yet that is precisely what i do when i start doing random web searches.
perhaps its really time to cut down my time on the net.
more discipline more discipline!
i need MORE DISCIPLINE.
i need to get a job too.
yet, i'm wondering...
if everyone in the group gets a job,
no one will be free technically to plan cg and stuff.
so i shouldn't get a job,
so that i can plan cg and stuff?
hmm. but at the same time,
it kinda sucks just spending and not earning.
it really sucks just taking money from your parents and not earning your own.
i guess lazy as i may be,
i can't ever live the life of a freeloader.
i need more discipline God,
just dump it on me like a heavy rain.
and no, please don't let it literally rain down on me tomorrow.
i'm CRAZY to be awake at 4.15am when i'm supposed to wake up at 9am subsequently.
i really can't be late in meeting whoever i'm meeting today.
rather distracted today,
i really ought not to get so easily distracted.
gah.
so apparantly jonah prayed because he was grateful for the extraordinay mercy God had shown him.
WHAM.
was my first instinct to judge and say
that DUH, he is supposed to be grateful.
he was running away from God for goodness sake!
yet i do the same thing whenever i merely have the thought of rebelling against my leaders and the holy spirit in me.
walking in step with the spirit is following God's will,
because the spirit guides me.
so in the strictest sense,
God's will is to keep in step with the spirit,
because it will lead us to where God can be found.
but if that were so,
i. would. be. so. dead.
thank God for God.
why do i find it so hard to focus at times?
why is it so easy for me to fall into laziness?
i suppose its easy for everyone else as well,
but if its MY biggest issue,
i should confront it.
GAH.
how does one un-lazy-fy herself?
so many undone things.
ben wai is going to kill me for the marcome stuff,
really need to do the jan calender by THIS SATURDAY,
and settle alllllll the stuff for the 31st service by FRIDAY.
with so much to do,
its a wonder i can still find it in me to slack.
yet that is precisely what i do when i start doing random web searches.
perhaps its really time to cut down my time on the net.
more discipline more discipline!
i need MORE DISCIPLINE.
i need to get a job too.
yet, i'm wondering...
if everyone in the group gets a job,
no one will be free technically to plan cg and stuff.
so i shouldn't get a job,
so that i can plan cg and stuff?
hmm. but at the same time,
it kinda sucks just spending and not earning.
it really sucks just taking money from your parents and not earning your own.
i guess lazy as i may be,
i can't ever live the life of a freeloader.
i need more discipline God,
just dump it on me like a heavy rain.
and no, please don't let it literally rain down on me tomorrow.
posted by PUAY! :) at 4:24 AM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home