thanksgiving on sat(4/2)

thanksgiving:
- god for a great service :)
- cj actually winning a round!
- the taiwan chicken i ate today after like FINALLY
- shirley who still preached & taught despite her food poisoning
- fun time at xbox after clm

i've made my choice,
and i'm not going to turn and wonder how green the grass is on the other side. :)

and today,
i'm never going to say that i don't mean something to anyone ever again,
because i do.
it makes me feel so loved
to know that there are those who would cry just because
they may not be in the same region as me anymore.
i'm touched that they still regard me so highly in their lives
to come over to hug me,
cry for me,
and miss me.

it just makes it all the more harder to go overseas
because i know just how alone i will be in the beginning.
it just makes me all the more want to keep in touch with friends,
because i know how much it will mean to them
and how much it will sustain me.

i will take the time to appreciate friendships,
and to prune those that bring me only sadness and anger.
i asked ash about it recently,
and she said that she keeps friend who know will help her,
and she they.
i shall too. :)
and i pray i'll have the patience to help and love those
whom i know i can make a difference to.

i have so much to say to those moving on,
but will i?
tomorrow come,
and bring another day,
and courage come
to take those words away.
yes i will.