and i remember.

on a more somber note now. :)

during seed, we were asked 4 questions.
1.) the greatest storm in your life.
2.) the most memorable cg.
3.) the most memorable thing you heard.
4.) how you cope with studies.

the instant i read the first point, i remembered that time.
'puay lin, we've all got something to tell you.'
the voice, so sweet, so familar.
'we want to change church.'
the news so sudden, so totally blowing me away.

i remember talking to jessie in the room and just crying and crying.
i remember shutting all the tears in.
i remember veron (or was it jiayi?) bringing me to the corridor outside the ne rc during pm and just letting me cry and cry and cry.

how do you go around telling people such things?

when you put all you have into others, you leave nothing for yourself.
so when people go away, they leave you empty and numb.
like a shell devoid of life.

i wonder how i hung on.
how i kept on going.
if God didn't sustain me, i don't know how else i did it.
so thank God. :)