my egnima me.

there are some people i know i shouldn't get too close to, that i shouldn't put my heart into their hands,
otherwise,
i'll be dropping myself into the deep end.

but yet i thank god for them,
for being there when i need to rant,
when i need a listening ear,
when i just need to hear a friendly voice.

i realise how ironic i am,
that i'm optimistic,
yet so negative at the very same time.
that i believe so much,
yet i give up in other areas.

i must say,
there are still times that i wonder why i'm here,
do undergo things i will never say have such a profound effect on me.

i hate hiding,
but i guess everyone has something to hide.