jonah 3 NIV

ok, about jonah first.
so why the sudden change of heart?
did he only follow God because of what God had to do to him?
God, let me serve you not because i'm compelled to do so by your means but by my own willingness.

i want to pray for myself to continually get refreshed this year.
such a hard thing to do, because i have to continuously take note of my spiritual life,
but something i must do if i really want to grow.

what is happening to my cg God?
i feel as though we're all drifting apart.
its like,
some invisible work monster has come upon us all
and ripped us apart,
leaving our fellowship in shreds.
i feel as though there are stuff going on that i should know about,
yet sometimes, it kinda sucks to be the one to initiate the solution and change the situation.
yet i must.
god, must you really use me?
darn. i sound like jonah.
OKOK, I WILL BE GOD'S WILLING VESSEL AND MEND THE BROKEN SPIRIT OF MY CAREGROUP AND MY UNIT BACK TOGETHER.

going to leave myself free this coming week God,
let me use it wisely.
let me really put your church and you above all things offered to me by the world.
let me never worship money.
so easy to do so,
but i want to take a stand!

how's huiling god?
i heard she isn't doing too well over in tertiary.
what's going on?
sometimes i wonder,
why do we have emotions that we can't control,
and logic that we don't know how to use.
or maybe its high time to renew my stance on compassionate.

thank you god,
for letting the 7 days thing be a success. :)

new year resolutions!
- lose weight
- greater spiritual consistency
- note down thanksgiving points almost every other day.

ok,
i pray that i'll stick to that.
God, you'll help me take care of the group won't you?
thanks!