i pray.

i honestly feel that i pray better when i word them out, or express them out vocally.
so here i shall pray, because God isn't limited to my voice alone. :)

what shall i pray for?
what shall i say?
to give me good luck
and joy for the day?
to embrace me and love me,
like you always do?
or just to hold your hand,
and draw me back to you?

time to get serious.
what shall i pray for?
so many things, its kinda hard to start.
so a general prayer God, before i start ranting off to you.

i pray for the girls in our church Lord,
may you watch over them and grow them strong.
let them understand that your grace isn't for them to remain as little immature girls,
who stumble brothers through what they say, dress or do,
who whine and fuss over little things.
instead God, let them grow into big girls who are worthy to be called children of God,
who shine for you no matter where they go, no matter the situation their in.

i pray for the guys in our church,
may you guard their hearts, their minds their souls,
from anything that may cause them to stumble and fall,
or anything else inbetween.
may you help them grow to become man of God,
who, like david, can fall giant withs a simple stone,
like joshua, conquer with simple faith,
like paul, whose only wish was to glorify your name.

i pray for cj,
may the stronghold of materialism in the school be there no longer,
may you give those wanting to spread your love courage enough to spread it.
may your hand work in all of us,
that we'll see and understand the wonder of your love.

i pray for my caregroup,
for shuyi, that she'll be a leader for you, wise and strong.
only you know how hard it is for her lord, yet how much she yearns to be used by you.
for joyce, that you calm her heart, that she'll understand that she needs to allow others into her quiet heart, that its alright to show that she's not always so strong.
for ashleigh, that you carry her through her wounded ways, her affected past, her want to be still in your pressence. her peace is in you God, let her discover the joy of that peace and how it overcomes all the sadness she has lived.
for crystal, for her desire to win pjc, yet the lack she finds in herself in accomplishing that goal. fill her with your pressence God, let her see through eyes of faith, let her move with a strength she never knew she had, a conviction she never knew she possessed.
for cathy, that you'll calm her wild and raging heart, that she'll realise her foolishness in trying to find a place in the world, despite knowing its temporal nature and superficial stance.
for michelle, that she'll desire to want to know more of you.
for xiuhui, that she'll continue clinging onto you, to seek you with all that she has. that she'll realise she's forgiven by your blood, and to love others as she would herself, and that she'll understand how special and unique you made her, and rejoice for creating her as your child.
for lishan, daixuan, ruixia, though i don't know them too well, but God, i pray for them nevertheless, that they'll continue growing in you, seeking you, finding you.
for janice, oh how much i thank you for giving her to us! i pray that her heart will be opened, her mind will be convinced, and that she'll realise the worth of you in her life. :)

for those around me,
tamar, that'll you'll keep her safe and sound in auckland, always with you, and that she'll never let you go, that she'll find her strength and refuge in you.
claire, thank you Lord, for adorning me with her care, for her subtle love for me that is always there.
jiayi, that she'll grow into a woman of God, a mighty warrior of yours that isn't deterred by anything, and even if she is, will come back to the fight with the armour of God.
veron, thanks for blessing me with her. her dependency on you, her unwavering understand that God is god and how she turns to your word for everything, anything.
rachel, her life has touched me, her perseverence has moved me, and thank you for allowing her to be such a blessing to me. please, let her grow in you, find her strength in you, because sometimes she needs it so.
huiling, she needs to understand your love for her so much more God.

for the people i have yet to know, or yet to get close to,
give me the patience i need, the wisdom i require, all that you know i will have to possess to go through life with them, to help them, to inspire them, to love them like you loved me.

for placing situations in my life,
for blessing me so much,
for correcting me when i'm obstinate and wrong.

i pray too for the brothers that i work the most with,
for matthew, that he'll find the stillness of his heart in you and you alone, and that he'll continue growing in the many areas he still has to grow in.
for harry, that he'll always be consistent in you, always inspiring to know you, for always never letting go of you in his life.
for all the others, make them into MEN for your kingdom God!
its so much nicer to work with mature men instead of whining boys. :)

for myself.
that i'll continue growing in wisdom and knowledge of you, that i can spread what i know to others, to continue learning from others about you.
in my love and compassion, God knows how much more mercy i need.
for discipline, because i'm so very lazy and so...ill-disciplined.

God, you know my heart,
purify it, through and through.
thank you. :)