the pursuit for truth.

there is truly no one more convulated route
than that to the absolute truth.

was reading through an old bookmark of mine,
concerning the myth of sophia,
wisdom in her true form.

so now i'm thinking.
the godhead - father, son, holy spirit - is it always male?
if so, how was eve created?
or is the holy spirit androgynous?

jesus is great,
an example to follow,
in life and character,
for guys especially.
but will there be a woman for us to follow as well?
since god loves everyone,
including women,
won't he create a perfect woman,
to relate to women as well?

it is possible that there is a counterpart for christ other than the church.
a perfect counterpart, which we are linked to.
all this theory is confusing,
and albeit somewhat useless in application,
truth is truth,
and will i ever attain the whole picture?

and the love of free will.
how awesome it is,
yet hardly anyone knows or understands,
sadly.

it takes a great amount of love to let go.
true love doesn't simply trust,
it allows for the love to make mistakes
in its own time,
it allows for the love to have its own individual existence,
because existing is such a wonderful experience,
that is lost on so many people.

so many questions i want answered god,
and if i ever go to heaven,
i pray that you'll allow me to sit at your feet,
and ask you them one at a time,
and hear answers that'll fill my soul with utmost joy.