what if.

what if god took way every good thing he gave to me,
would i still love him so?

what if god allowed me to go through a job-level testing,
would i still praise god?

what if god had a plan of such great magnitude that scares me,
would i still serve god?

what if god let me be horribly persecuted,
would i still follow god?

what if god hides his face from me,
would i still seek him?

what if all my lofty names and bearings were to be taken away from me,
would i still thank god?

its hard to give thanks when everything doesn't go my way,
when i seem to have been 'demoted' of sorts,
and when my skies are all coloured grey.
so shine oh soul,
and praise god anyway.

so hard so hard to,
but i want, i must, i should.

now i wonder about the people around me,
about my sheep, my leaders, my peers.
will they continue serving,
continue loving and learning and giving,
and thanking and praying and praising,
when god takes things away from them?
so i pray now that they won't stop praising,
that they'll still be strong,
even when faith seems so hard to come by.