thanksgiving for sun(15/1)

thankful for:
- the american teacher i met at NP, i KNOW that its a sign from you
- another directional pointer in the form of ben wai
- ash for the cookies
- mom for buying the dvds
- jinqi for being concerned
- qianjin for surprisingly showing concern
- for letting me know the structure that is such a drastic change from where i thought i would go that its really going to test how much i am willing to take to serve you
- mom for paying for peggy's chew toy and collar/leash
- peggy for enjoying the chew toy i got for her :)
- God for helping me save money online

things are changing so rapidly God,
i don't know what to do really.
i feel so helpless,
surrounded by so many things that scream out MY PLAN FOR YOU.
i want to pray that you give me courage to take it.
i'm awfully scared of going overseas by myself,
but if it really what you want me to do,
i want to do it willingly.
i pray that you will re-affirm it again and again,
and that the final comfirmation will be my alevel results.
if i am to get all Bs and Cs,
i will know so that going overseas is your plan for me.
i write this,
trembling,
because i feel as though i'm asking for something way too specific.
but God, i want to have faith.
won't you please prop me up as i want to believe?

and for everyone else who's going through this time of transition,
won't you just protect them too?

and i just bought a compact bible dictionary today,
let me utilise it well! :)

i'm terribly nervous about the future now God,
let me be all willing for you,
and please don't mind me if i ask many questions. :|

pray for jeslyn, for xiuhui, for the new cj girl that i really must get jeslyn/sihan to conact, for the cj group, the nj group, the j3s, the unit, everyone!
God, we all have yet to fully understand your plans for us,
but let it be so that where you lead us, we will follow.
please, lead us along your quiet streams when we cannot bear the thick jungles,
the quiet paths when we are weary from the cutting desert wind.

now is the time i just want to snuggle up inside your wings,
and understand that i have nothing to fear about my future,
because you hold it safe in your hands.