the tears finally come.

i'm not one to cry publicly i suppose.
i try not to, never to anyway.
i mean, who likes to cry and make everyone trend softly around you, and causing all to feel akward and weird and stuff?

i'm going to miss having joanna as my shepherd, i really am.
God, i thank you so much for putting her in my life, for whatever she's done for me, for all the love she's showered on me, for all the things she's taught me through her life and shepherdings.
i love her so so so much.

i didnt want to cry today, i really didn't.
but i just couldn't help it.

oh God, even though yes, we're still sisters in Christ, we still share the same big blue sky, the same wonderful father in heaven, the same promises of salvation; it just wont be the same anymore.
there's always a certain bond between people in the same caregroup, and although friendships can still flourish outside of them, its still going to be different.

everything happens for a reason God, and i know that i may not know it now, maybe not ever, but i still wish to ask you of this one thing:
keep joanna safe in your hands because oh God, does she need so much in her life.

i thank God that i could have had the experience of being under a shepherd like her.