the memories of yore.

a new year, a new start?

can i just dump all of my favorite memories with you Lord,
because i hold onto them so dearly?
and there are some things that i don't want to forget, ever.

we were talking about what heaven would be like one day,
so many of us are fascinated about the 'houses' and 'treasures' we'll get, the rewards, the more tangible things.
but i want to focus on the feeling.
i think that heaven has been experienced on earth, albeit only momentarily, but a slice of heaven is better than none.

i know of times i just want to freeze-frame and stay in forever,
when the bus/mrt journey seems far to short,
when the time seems to tick by far too quickly.
times when i just want to stay in that spot forever,
when one wishes on all of the stars in the sky,
to forever and ever have that moment always.
i think that heaven will be like that,
its going to be wonderful, i know.

so God, please keep those memories i want to keep with me forever because they will decay and be lost here on earth.
i don't want that. :(

i think my heart is highly deceiving at times.
and my eyes tell me what i sometimes cannot see.

and i'm sad.
because a dear dear friend has lied to me.
i feel numb.
and i just want to cry out.

memories to keep:
that night at the chalet
the mrt ride home with delightful conversation
the night with friends
more than what i should keep

thou shalt not dwell into wherest thou shalt be burnt.